From today, Scenes from Adelaide Road is available for early download on Pride Publishing’s Website. It will go on general release on December 1st. The early release gives me a wonderful opportunity to share all the details with you J
Can a young man find the courage he never knew he had when faced with losing everything he holds dear?
The story in this book was inspired by a song written by my daughter, Tara Kennedy. Talented as she is, she combined her song with my words and wonderful pictures of Dublin to create the following book trailer. I hope you’ll enjoy it. If you're curious, a full version of Tara's song - Anything - as well as many other songs, can be found here: Soundcloud
The scene I’m sharing in the excerpt below takes place shortly after Lennart first meets Aidan in a nightclub in Dublin, as can be read in the first excerpt I shared: here.
“You wanna dance?”
Every muscle in my body tensed at his suggestion. Imagining myself on the dance floor was one thing. To actually get up and move among the swaying crowd took far more confidence than I had.
Aidan didn’t give me a chance to say no. He got out of his chair and held out his hand. When I grabbed it he pulled me up and held on to my hand as he led the way to the middle of the floor.
The acoustics in the club were phenomenal. The difference between the volume levels on the dance floor and where we’d been sitting took me by surprise. Now, in the middle of the fray, the rhythm took hold of my body. I felt the heavy bass vibrating in the floor and travelling up my legs. I should have been too self-conscious to dance but I couldn’t resist the combination of beat and moving bodies. Almost against my will, my body swayed along with the rhythm. Pride filled me when a huge grin spread across Aidan’s face as he watched me crawl out of my shell. His hand, still holding mine, gave me the confidence to let go of my inhibitions for a minute.
I stopped thinking as I lost myself in the music. My usual shyness disappeared, the cynical voice in my head couldn’t be heard over the beat. Even Aidan letting go of my hand and throwing himself into the music couldn’t put a dent in my newfound confidence. This was what I’d hoped for when I moved to
this sense of freedom, the permission to be myself, and the opportunity to stop
worrying about what impression I might be making on those around me.
“You move beautifully.”
Aidan’s voice only barely reached my ears but his words made me glow. We circled each other as we danced. I almost froze when Aidan got very close behind me and ground his crotch into my arse.
“Relax. It’s all good. Everybody here is just like you and me. Look.”
I did look. Between the smoke machines and the blinding lights, it wasn’t easy to see anybody in detail, which reassured me. If I couldn’t see them, they couldn’t see me. But what I did see showed me Aidan’s grinding was as innocent as interactions on this dance floor got. A lot of couples might have been having full on sex if it weren’t for the clothes they wore. Groins pressed into arses, hands explored the outlines of cocks and tonsil tennis appeared to be the taste of the day. And that was just the men. The female couples I spotted had no more inhibitions than their male counterparts. It was an exhilarating experience and my body couldn’t help but respond. The stirring in my pants as blood found its way to my cock felt both delicious and uncomfortable. Part of me couldn’t help but be afraid people might notice and make fun of me even while common sense told me I did not stand out in this crowd.
Songs ended and others started and our bodies moved. I’d never felt this good in my life. The sense of freedom was intoxicating. I remembered how I’d wanted to walk away from this club and Aidan. Gratitude for whatever it had been that had made me stay, filled me. My new life was turning out much better than I could have hoped.
The music changed. The beat all but disappeared as a much slower song started. I’d taken one step back towards where we’d been sitting when Aidan grabbed my shoulder and pulled me close. “Don’t walk away. This is where it gets real good.”
Not that I had much of a choice. With one hand holding the back of my neck and another just above my arse, I couldn’t have walked away without violently dislodging myself from his hold. No matter how much the closeness scared me, I didn’t want it to end and lose the opportunity to discover what it felt like to hold somebody’s body close to mine.
When he pulled me closer I went. A sigh escaped me when our chests connected. With Aidan slightly taller than me, my nose ended up against his neck, just below his ear and I inhaled his aroma. Sweat combined with something earthy I couldn’t name, captivated me. I closed my eyes and surrendered to the heady combination of music and Aidan. Our crotches touched and the realisation my cock wasn’t the only one reacting to our closeness sent a rush through me. He moved his hips and I followed his movements. Our bodies rubbing off each other brought me pleasure and frustration in equal measure.
“I told you it would be good.”
Even with the music as loud as it was I could hear the heat in Aidan’s voice.
“I didn’t know.” The words escaped my mouth before I could think about them.
“Didn’t know how it would feel to dance with a man?”
I had no idea how to answer Aidan’s question. I couldn’t tell him I didn’t know what it might be like to do anything with a man, dancing, kissing, touching. I had no experience with any of it so I just shook my head and kept quiet.
“Hey, look at me.” Aidan’s voice was so soft I had to strain to hear him. “Enjoy. It doesn’t matter if it’s a first for you. All of us had to start somewhere at some time.”
I didn’t know whether to be grateful or scared he saw right through me. How could he possibly know my thoughts and feelings? We’d only just met. He didn’t know me any better than I knew him and yet he seemed to have a very clear picture of who and what I was. I looked at him and saw something in his eyes that took my breath away. His heated gaze flicked from my eyes to my mouth and back again before he moved closer and pressed his lips against mine for a moment.
My body tensed and stopped moving. My heart thundered in my chest and my breathing sped up. I pulled back with enough force to break Aidan’s hold and stepped away. My gaze flew around the club until I’d located the exit. I strode towards it without looking at anybody, panic driving me forward. I vaguely heard my name and ignored it. I needed to get outside, away from all these people, away from the new experiences and away from all these feelings I didn’t know how to deal with.