Forever
Young
This place…
I’m not sure how
long I’ve been here. Time has lost its meaning since I discovered this
sanctuary, forced my way in, and secured the place, making sure no one would be
able to follow me.
Mind you, this is
not a bad place. I have a roof over my head, clean water to drink, and the
vegetation gives me both a soft place to sleep and fruit to eat. I’m neither
warm nor cold. All of these are positives, things I yearned for and never
thought I might find, so why is my stomach knotted up with anxiety? Why am I
sure the apparent peace surrounding me is a sham, a ploy to give me a false
sense of security?
“Hello!” I shout
out the word, breaking the silence. The same silence that comforted me when it
first enveloped me. Before I fell asleep, when the light disappeared, I had
been sure I was safe here. As soon as I opened my eyes I knew that was no
longer true. I have no idea why my perception changed, can’t put my finger on
the disparity between then and now, but something is different.
Soft giggling pulls
me out of my thoughts. The laughter is high pitched and happy. Then I hear soft
footfalls but I can’t pinpoint where the sound is coming from until I look up
at the ridge running parallel with the lowest window. There! What’s that?
I look on in wonder
as what appears to be a youngster skips along the narrow, shelf-like feature.
He or she, I can’t tell from here, squeals louder with every hop, skip and
jump. I can’t watch, for reasons I don’t understand I’m terrified to discover I’m
not alone after all.
I push my back
against the large rock, making myself as small as possible before closing my
eyes, hoping that if I can’t see my visitor I’ll be invisible too. The giggling
changes, becomes louder and turns menacing. Memories assault me.
I’m
running, fleeing something I can’t see but hear all too well. My pursuers are
getting closer, I can hear their feet hitting the ground and without turning my
head to look, I know they’re almost upon me. I need to find refuge. I don’t
want to die. I…”
“You can hide but
you can’t stay hidden.”
The voice singing
the words is beautiful, mesmerizing, urging me to reveal myself so that I can
admire its owner. Then it’s joined by a second voice, a third, a multitude of
timbres combining until they reach a breathtaking cresendo.
“Peek-a-boo.”
The word is spoken
so close to my ear I can feel the speaker’s breath caress my cheek. Instinct
takes over and I open my eyes. I’m surrounded by a group of youngsters, all
grinning at me, their eyes hard and accusing.
As soon as they
pull the black hood over my head and tie my hands behind my back I remember.
There’s nothing wrong with them…it’s me. I turned twenty-one last night.
As they pull me up
and lead me away my mind clears from the fog it has been shrouded in for longer than I care to recall.
I failed… I grew up. There’s no room for adults in this world. I never wondered
where they went. I guess I’m about to find out now.
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